Hello all...so sorry - I am a bad, bad, blogger! I have no excuse except to say that my days are filled with taking care of Mr. Braeden Parker Perrault and he needs a lot of attention!!! I have to say I am enjoying it, though... I wish it was possible for me to do this long term, but unemployment does not last forever and someday soon I feel that something new will come along. I am toying with the idea of attempting to go to grad school to be a school counselor, although I am not sure if I'll get enough financial aide to make that happen - but like everything else in life, it's worth a try!
Things have been hectic, to say the least. I am struggling to find a middle ground with Karl where we can agree on how to move forward and remain friends... it's an emotionally draining process but I am doing the best I know how.
Sky is doing really well! I am happy to report that she got her front shoes replaced recently and actually had to be truly trimmed! Bethany says that whatever I've been doing, I should keep up and that her feet are looking really good.
I am getting so excited to go to East Corinth! I cannot believe it is that time of year again...it's so scary... this year has been so full of changes and even though it will not be the same this year as some people aren't going and Beth and Marcia aren't going until Wednesday....East Corinth is an amazing thing b/c it's so familiar... I cannot wait to see the church steeple over the rolling hills and ride through the same fields we did last year and the year before - watching the views and enjoying the company...
I am lucky this year as Lisa is lending her trailer to me! She's going to bring me up on Tuesday night and drop the trailer so I can camp out of there and have a "home base" of my very own!! I am super excited...
Betsy is coming but not until Friday, but that's ok. The saddest thing I can think of is that Harvey will not be there. Betsy thought he had pnemonia and got the vet out and put him on antibiodics but he passed away a few days later... I cannot even express how sad it makes me to think of how Harvey will not be Sky's companion in the trailer any longer, or get us through any more hard parts of the trail.... Harvey was Sky's friend, I know in my heart, and I think she is missing him too. I cannot imagine losing my good friend - the one who is always there to greet me and get me through all my hard times.... I know Betsy misses Harvey immensely and it will take a long time for that sting to go away.
Lisa, of course, stepped right in and lent Betsy Shilo right away... I think it was a good thing b/c Betsy was able to keep riding, which eases any pain. Shilo and her are a good fit, because Shilo needs attention and riding and Betsy needs a horse to care for! I cannot wait to seee him in VT - I'm sure he'll be wonderful.
So, I am plugging away... once again going to VT will be an end and a beginning. When I get back I vow to work harder at job hunting and get my school act in gear. I am happy for the meantime staying wtih Josh and Lisa, who are wonderful, but it will not be forever and I need to lay some foundation for the future I had no idea was before me.... it's always a day at a time and like always, I am taking baby steps to get through them!
I promise photos from EC (I've lost the cord!!!). Lots of love to you all!
C
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
what's happening lately
Hello all.
So, I have a lot to say and a little time to say it, so I am going to be consise, if I can.
First, the camping trip... oh my well-planned, deeply thought out, camping trip. Ashleigh, Amanda, Betsy and I were so excited to go and despite some bad weather reports, we went forward, gung-ho to have a good time. The drive up was super long but the weather was decent for that, so it wasn't so bad. I was so anxious to get up there and get a good ride in before the inevitable rain was to arrive.
We finally pulled into the state park, after honestly thinking that we were on the wrong track, in the middle of nowhwere, VT. The horse camping sites were situated on a small "field" which reminded us more of a lawn...with small sites dotting the edge. The areas for the horses were rather tiny but we figured it would be ok. There was not a soul around, so we felt like we had the whole place to ourselves, which was nice. We managed to get everything set and get saddled in time for a ride. We headed one way, down a dirt road which reminded me of a class six road. When we saw a trail sign, I asked if anyone wanted to check it out. Once on that trail, I did realize that it was truly, a hiking trail - narrow and rocky... but it was passable. I figured we would come out on another dirt road or loop around to where we came from...
I am not going to go into extreme detail on this trail - only to say that here's a bit of advice: when you go through the second or third really bad rocky spot on a trail then it's time to turn around! I have never been so scared on a trail that my horse would break a leg and that I might go flying as well! Needless to say, we are safe and alive, and I thank god for that.
Friday night we had a great dinner, courtsey of Amanda, and settled into our tents. I didn't sleep that well, not because I wasn't warm or comfortable, but because the rain was coming down so hard and I was so concerned about the tent leaking! So, I slept a bit, but woke up early to the middle of the tent dripping a little bit. It turned out that was nothing compared to the night Ashleigh and Amanda had! The poor girls had a leaky tent all night and their horses paced and they got their sleeping bags wet. After a little discussion, we decided to pack it in, although Betsy and I were willing to stay longer.
Sunday Betsy and I forced ourselves back into the truck and dragged our poor horses another hour to Marsh Billings... it was SOOO WORTH IT. It was a beautiful day and I love Marsh Billings more than any other place we ride. We traveled around for a full three and a half hours and although my butt was done, my heart could've gone more! It made up for the bad day before and it was great.
Since then I rode last night - with Dave which was super fun. I was so glad he was willing to go and do what I like. He seemed to have fun, so that was good.
On another note, life is settling down and getting crazy. I am now watching Braeden for Lisa while she and Josh are both back to work. The good part is that I am contributing to the household and providing some use of myself while I am staying with them. The bad part is it is keeping me from looking for another job as hard as I should. I am thinking seriously about going to grad school starting in January, but I also need time to figure that out. I am trying very hard to keep my eye on the future, but the present is taking so much of my energy it is rough. I am taking life day by day as of now.. happy moments and angry moments, frustrating times and times when it "seems" like all will be ok. I do not really know what the future holds, and I am concerned about it, but right now it takes all my energy to get through each day with the same conviction that I woke up with...I am surprised that I am remaining strong but I can finally see the forest through the trees... I can finally see now that I am going to be alright. I don't know how and I don't know when but I am pretty sure it's going to happen.
C
So, I have a lot to say and a little time to say it, so I am going to be consise, if I can.
First, the camping trip... oh my well-planned, deeply thought out, camping trip. Ashleigh, Amanda, Betsy and I were so excited to go and despite some bad weather reports, we went forward, gung-ho to have a good time. The drive up was super long but the weather was decent for that, so it wasn't so bad. I was so anxious to get up there and get a good ride in before the inevitable rain was to arrive.
We finally pulled into the state park, after honestly thinking that we were on the wrong track, in the middle of nowhwere, VT. The horse camping sites were situated on a small "field" which reminded us more of a lawn...with small sites dotting the edge. The areas for the horses were rather tiny but we figured it would be ok. There was not a soul around, so we felt like we had the whole place to ourselves, which was nice. We managed to get everything set and get saddled in time for a ride. We headed one way, down a dirt road which reminded me of a class six road. When we saw a trail sign, I asked if anyone wanted to check it out. Once on that trail, I did realize that it was truly, a hiking trail - narrow and rocky... but it was passable. I figured we would come out on another dirt road or loop around to where we came from...
I am not going to go into extreme detail on this trail - only to say that here's a bit of advice: when you go through the second or third really bad rocky spot on a trail then it's time to turn around! I have never been so scared on a trail that my horse would break a leg and that I might go flying as well! Needless to say, we are safe and alive, and I thank god for that.
Friday night we had a great dinner, courtsey of Amanda, and settled into our tents. I didn't sleep that well, not because I wasn't warm or comfortable, but because the rain was coming down so hard and I was so concerned about the tent leaking! So, I slept a bit, but woke up early to the middle of the tent dripping a little bit. It turned out that was nothing compared to the night Ashleigh and Amanda had! The poor girls had a leaky tent all night and their horses paced and they got their sleeping bags wet. After a little discussion, we decided to pack it in, although Betsy and I were willing to stay longer.
Sunday Betsy and I forced ourselves back into the truck and dragged our poor horses another hour to Marsh Billings... it was SOOO WORTH IT. It was a beautiful day and I love Marsh Billings more than any other place we ride. We traveled around for a full three and a half hours and although my butt was done, my heart could've gone more! It made up for the bad day before and it was great.
Since then I rode last night - with Dave which was super fun. I was so glad he was willing to go and do what I like. He seemed to have fun, so that was good.
On another note, life is settling down and getting crazy. I am now watching Braeden for Lisa while she and Josh are both back to work. The good part is that I am contributing to the household and providing some use of myself while I am staying with them. The bad part is it is keeping me from looking for another job as hard as I should. I am thinking seriously about going to grad school starting in January, but I also need time to figure that out. I am trying very hard to keep my eye on the future, but the present is taking so much of my energy it is rough. I am taking life day by day as of now.. happy moments and angry moments, frustrating times and times when it "seems" like all will be ok. I do not really know what the future holds, and I am concerned about it, but right now it takes all my energy to get through each day with the same conviction that I woke up with...I am surprised that I am remaining strong but I can finally see the forest through the trees... I can finally see now that I am going to be alright. I don't know how and I don't know when but I am pretty sure it's going to happen.
C
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